Life Experiences

"I always take the opportunity to face my fears and weaknesses so that someday I will not regret that I am not brave enough to face it."

Honestly, I do have fears, everyone does. I fear spiders most but I do also fear to speak in front of many people.
To overcome this, if there is an opportunity in facing those fears I grab it. 

So in many opportunities that I encounter, the recent one made me mad most. I don't know but I think it's worth sharing.

I was asked to read a text from the bible in front of at least 30 people, some of them were adults and professionals. It is my first time to do it, outside the class and in my whole life. I was forced to read it, and there is a little time to prepare. I accepted it because it is not for the people who were there but for God and the person who assigns readers look at me with daggers. But my legs were like Jell O, I was thinking back then I will face this with courage and keep repeating in my mind that it is for God and there is nothing to worry about. 

When it is my time to read the text, and grab the microphone, my hands went shaking. I read the text  without looking at the audience which is a big NO-NO in public speaking. I read the text fast so that I can sit down already. I did wrong, I know I did. 

After that the the one who assigns the readers told me that, I read badly and next time I should do it properly. I know I should take it positively since it is for my own good. It is a room for my improvement. But I felt really bad. But well every time I remember it I always think, it is already done and nothing I can do about it and besides who cares about what others think of me, they do not even know me. 

And I think this prayer really helped me to move forward, face and experience many things in this world whether it will be good or bad.

"Accept the things you cannot change, have the courage to change the things you can and have the wisdom to know the difference"

There will be many next time's and there I will make a difference.